15 June 2022
What is a winter of the soul and how can we transmute the darkness into light?
It's cold and dark out there! Winter is a time of slowing down and retreating inside, but as the cold days continue and we don’t see the sun much we might begin to miss the light and warmth. It's easy to feel overwhelmed by the darkness. As we retreat indoors this is a symbol of our retreat inside of ourselves. We can be faced with dark emotions that we have been repressing, feelings of sadness, loneliness or stress that were easier to avoid during the sunny days where we were distracted by socialising and activities. This is natural and not something to be worried about but rather an opportunity for personal growth if we can take advantage of what the season has to offer us.
The artist Nicoleen Agnello with her painting 'Death and Rebirth'
As within, so without. As above, so below
The Law of Correspondence, the second Hermetic law
'As within, so without. As above, so below’ explains that the outside world is a reflection of our inner world. It expresses the idea that there is always harmony and correspondence between the different parts of the universe as everything emanates from the same Source and is therefore governed by the same laws and principles. In this way we cannot help but be affected by the divine order and cycle of the universe and the seasons of the earth.
Along with the winter season we are also experiencing a spiritual winter of the soul.
In nature we are familiar with the seasons, the natural order of life. We know that although it may appear that the trees and flowers have died that’s not really the case. We know that they have simply withdrawn inside and are quietly resting and preserving their energy to get them through this period of darkness, but they will return in spring with new growth. This opportunity is available to us too.
'Death and Rebirth’ by Nicoleen Agnello
A time of Death and Rebirth
As a professional artist I have always found that creating art helps me to process my emotions and so I want to share with you my new painting called ‘Death and Rebirth”. This painting is about death and decay but it is also about rebirth and growth as death and life are just two sides of the same coin. This is a deeply personal painting because it is based on something that I experienced in my life and that was my own near death. For over ten years I was chronically and at times critically ill. This painting is my story of death and rebirth.
My healing story
Throughout this ten year period I was diagnosed with many different things, among them Chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, and Lyme disease. I was bed bound for most of each day and had crippling fatigue and lived with constant excrutiating pain. I had so many symptoms its hard to even mention them all. I was crippled with severe arthritis which made it impossible to type or hold a pen and very difficult to walk. I had severe tremors from ms and no strength in my limbs. I struggled to even lift a cup of tea. My hip dislocated and I was wheelchair bound with my newborn daughter. I had severe brain fog and dementia which made simple tasks almost impossible. I remember a scarey day where I was attempting to visit my dr where I had been hundreds of times before but on that day I had a memory blank and couldn’t remember how to get there. I tried to turn back to go home but I couldn’t recall if I lived in a house or an apartment, if I was single or married, lived on a farm, nothing. There was no memory at all.
This was a very dark period of my life. I found myself losing a lot of friends as I couldn’t socialise at all and couldn’t even talk on the phone as my brain fog was so bad I didn’t have the cognitive ability to string together my own words as well as process what they were saying. I struggled to sit upright because or severe dizziness and I had bells palsy and one side of my face completely fell.
‘Crop of Death and Rebirth’ by Nicoleen Agnello
I had a deep and dark despair as I watched life passing me by. I watched from my bed as other people continued their lives and I struggled just to drag my arms and legs made of cement through an hour or two of chores before having to return to bed, in pain exhausted, while trying to raise two small children. I struggled so much to breathe that I was on a cpap machine even while awake. At this time my doctor discovered I had severe mold poisoning and we had to move out of our house into a caravan and strip the house back to bare frame to rebuild and get rid of all our possessions.
During this time I got meningitis and as I was fighting for my life memories of childhood abuse that I had suppressed my whole life came flooding back. I was critically ill and I thought I wasn’t going to make it. I said goodbye to my two small children who were 3 and 6 because I knew I was too weak to survive another attack of that magnitude.
‘Crop of Death and Rebirth’ by Nicoleen Agnello
Our human form is transient, but we are eternal souls
It was at this time that I received the vision that I have painted in this painting. I saw my body lifeless and beginning to breakdown under the earth and I knew that I was dying. Then I noticed that there was a light in my stomach area and something was pushing my body up towards the surface. There was new growth sprouting from that decay. I understood then that the old me was dying but that I was being reborn into something new. Yes our human form is transient, but we are eternal souls. I understood that all the pain, despair and trauma I had been going through was actually there to nuture me and for me to grow from.
It is in the depths of our pain and darkness that we turn towards the light
For me suffering through such a dark period in my life is actually what ultimately brought me the greatest light. Through the experience of having everything taken from me, my energy, my career, my home, my mind and nearly my life I got the opportunity to recreate myself. I got to decide what was really important to me and to rebuild my life in a new way. This vision was the starting point of healing my soul and after this transition I found the way to heal my physical conditions in the teachings of the spirit of compassion brought through Anthony Williams, medical medium.
After one year on the Medical Medium protocol I regained my physical health and reclaimed my life. I was able to achieve in one year what no amount of doctors or medication could achieve in 10 years through just herbs, fruit and vegetables. I continue to improve day by day and year by year, there is no turning back. I went on to address emotional pain and trauma through energy healing and it is now my passion to help others to heal!
If you are struggling with a chronic physical or mystery health condition, or emotional or spiritual trauma please know that you can heal! If you need help I am here.
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After winter comes the sun
I am so grateful for this message as it helped me to navigate the darkest part of my life and to understand that there is always hope because there is always light. It touched my life very deeply and I hope that if you are experiencing a dark time in your life right now you will know that hope springs eternal and that after winter the sun returns.
You always have a choice. You can choose to let your darkness overcome you by embodying it, or you can choose to grow from it with courage and self love.
With my love always
x Nicoleen
Nicoleen Agnello is the Flamekeeper, Guardian of love and light of the Universal Spirit. She is a spiritual teacher, energy healer, medical medium consultant and professional artist. Nicoleen offers private healings and consultations by appointment through
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