Heavy Heart

Now I lay me down to rest
Sinking heavily into my watery bed
Oh lady Lake of sadness
Welcoming me into the soft gloom of your heavy embrace
 
Drowning under strangled emotions
Swallowing every cold hard word and glancing pebble
I took all these things into my heart
Locking them away to protect you from their sting
 
I’ve tried to hold them all
No complaint or question
 
But one by one they have weighed me down
And I find I can no longer bear their weight
 
There was a time I would have drowned for you 
But what use are my sightless eyes, my cold hands?
What use is my stiff body to you?
 
With every breath I have fought this
All but one has escaped my lips
 
Would you demand that too?
 
Should I be chained to you forever 
Must I drown?
 
My heart a stone
dragging me down
 
Let me go my love
I wish to soar
Not sink
 
- Nicoleen Flamekeeper